Top ten random thoughts:

1. I’m surprised I made it to Motime before Christmas.
2. Going to a 6 year-olds birthday party can be fun.
3. Playing Memory with a 6 year old can be entertaining.
4. Holding a baby is beautiful
5. Handing-over the crying baby to her parents and then leave is priceless
6. No one knows that I’m re-discovering Catholicism
7. No one knows that I’ve been to church twice when there’s no one around
8. I hate group projects
9. Human beings are the only creatures who hurt the ones they love.
10. The internet is a difficult habit to quit.

Listening to: Spaceship by Angie Aparo (from back in the day when VH1 played music) video here

Last week I worked every single day, plus attended my night classes.  To say the least; I’m VERY tired.  I’m a bit old (twenty-eight) to have school enemies and all that middle school drama, but I do.  This childish attitude of mine caused me to change professors already and completely mess up my nicely tight schedule.   I’ve already been assigned tons of homework and a not-so-fabulous group project.   A root canal sounds more appealing….but I couldn’t sit with her, evil bitch rejected from you know where, in the same room.  

I went to a child’s birthday celebration and it was the best fun I’ve had in a while.  Everything was so nice and innocent; it was eerie.  Everything was so… pink!  I held a baby and it was like making one of my dreams come alive.  Realistically I know that I can’t afford to have one, both, due to time and money. (The same reasons I don’t have a pet.)  BTW: What kind of sadists serves cauliflower and Brussels sprouts at a child’s party?  My friend does- and did!

I’ve been to church because it was a promise I made.  I’ve had very stressful times lately and I found comfort in having a priest give me a blessing, as well as getting on my knees and pray, and believe that my prayers can be heard and may be answered.  I was an atheist/agnostic for many years, but I couldn’t completely shake-off some beliefs out of me.  Like a Catholic I’ve been praying to my saint, St. Anthony, and re-evaluating my entire belief system- yet again.  There are many things involved in this decision which will give me a lot to think and write about- like the faux philosopher that I am.  Ha-ha!  I don’t think God is in any church, but resides within the walls of our hearts.  I have certain values that I can’t compromise and that is why I can’t attend mega-churches filled with people and their designer threads.  I will not impose my beliefs on any one- not one person.  Live and let live should be my motto. 

#9 doesn’t need any further explanation.

# 10 I’ve smoked and been able to quit cold turkey.  I’ve even given up chocolate without going postal.  (I’ve lost 5 lbs)  I’ve gotten rid off toxic relationships, stopped retail therapy, haven’t had cable tv in years, and I have survived without indulging in any naps.  But there’s one thing I can’t seem to live without: The internet.  I think was going to have convulsions and a nervous breakdown when I didn’t have inet for 24 hours.  

Now this Miss needs to crash and burn.... love y'all!